Beloved’s Blog…

Hello! You might be wondering where did I go and why is it that I’m no longer updating this blog. We know that last y ear, I was so busy in discipling and telling the wonderful things that God made in my life. Also, I had mentioned God’s promises to me–of going to USA, etc– and so as my struggles. Well, I never stopped praying, believing and sharing my heart. It’s just that, I wasn’t able to share those stuffs here on Yamii Blog, but in my Friendster blog instead. If you want to visit my blog there, just click this: Beloved’s Blog and start browsing archives from September 2008 up to the present.

Thank you so much to blogs like this because they give me opportunities to share my life and my heart to other people. By the way, I’m already here in America! God bless to everyone!

An Imitator of the Good

“Beloved, do not imitate the evil but imitate the good. Whoever does good is from God; whoever does evil has not seen God.”

3 John 11

Whose character is best to be imitated by me? Of course, it’s the character of Jesus Christ. I must follow him and do things that he did. He loved the people and taught them the Word of God. He trained his 12 disciples and led them to light. He helped a lot of people. He forgave. He saved the whole world. He loved me with an undeserved grace. There is no room for imperfections.

I must copy, therefore, the heart of Christ. I must also follow the examples of those people who decided to follow him. If I do that, God is being pleased. Everyone will know that I belong to Him. Otherwise, people who do evil deeds just prove that they have never seen God. If their works are not patterned to His Word, surely,  they belong to the enemy. Will I have the delight to imitate them? No! Never!

Overcomer Princess

“For everyone who has been born of God overcomes the world. And this is the victory that has overcome the world–our faith.” 1 John 5:4

When I read this verse, I am truly reminded that I am His Beloved Princess… an Overcomer Princess who holds victory in her hands. My faith in Christ makes me triumphant. How precious it is to be called by Him, first, a conqueror, and now, an overcomer! And now, because my weapon is my faith, it is easy for me to crush Satan on my feet. I can overcome all the doubts and any ungodly desires in my heart through the help of the Holy Spirit. “You, My Princess, deserves a crown.” Thank you, Lord!

God Will Establish Me

“And after you have suffered a little while, the God of all grace, who has called you to His eternal glory in Christ, will Hismself restore, confirm, strengthen and establish you.” 1 Peter 5:10

All over the world, the Lord’s followers are suffering just as I am. It is because of the persecutions we receive from other people for Christ’s account. But there is nothing to fear of; for I belong to God and He will never ever leave me. Even though I trouble and suffer, I still share the glory of Christ. This is why that despite of all adversities, I’m still glad and bowing my knees to worship Him. When I am in trouble, it is the perfect time that I could hear His Word clearly. God will establish me after all.

Another poem was made one morning in my devotion…for Someone whom I glorify for all the trials in my life… for Someone who helps me escape all of these… for Someone who shows me triumph midst my hopeless battles.

♥+ BROKENNESS ♥+

You call my name when I am in pain

I hear Your voice clearly in my sufferings

You show me that in Your kingdom, I have a lot to gain,

And all in the world, without You, is nothing.

I’m being stoned with so much persecutions,

Almost killed by others rejections.

But still in You, I’m so much thankful,

For in my brokenness, You make me whole.

God, if through my sufferings and troubles I could hear your voice more clearly, then how I like it to put me always there. If during my downfall, You could establish me more, then how I like it to always fall when after all, I know that I will fall in Your hands. I should be broken first so that You will make me whole. God will establish me.- Yamii the Established

Tested on Fire

For few weeks, I felt that I’m really tested on fire. There have been a lot of things that I experienced and I should have written them all here. I’m really happy because I’m really an overcomer! I am an overcomer of the world! I’m an overcomer of my problems! I am an overcomer of my own emotions! I am an overcomer of rejections and persecutions from my loved ones! I’m really glad to be tested on fire! I know I have more things to encounter; I’m sure God will give me strength to face them all!

My devotional is teaching me about sufferings. Even my fellowship with other people tells me the significance of it. And I’d like to share this poem I made one morning on my devotional time.

 

+♥ ON FIRE ♥+

Like a gold, I won’t be precious if not being tested on fire

For the fire molds me and deepens my desire,

Desire to live with what God wants truly,

And a desire to be like Him, who is holy.

So be glad, my soul–arise and rejoice!

For today–everyday–I will hear His Voice.

Let not my heart be troubled…

Let not my mind be doubled…

He, who puts me on the furnace,

Is faithful enough to save me with His grace.

I have won the battle of life because I have already surrendered my life to God. I love Him so much! (cries)

At the Fields…

I visited and looked at the fields this afternoon and saw that there are a lot to harvest. I felt really compassioned for the fruits that are ready to reap. I almost cried at that moment but God said I must be strong. Until now, my heart hurts. Help me, God.

My Heart Waits…

“Wait for the Lord; be strong and let your heart take courage. Wait for the Lord!”

Psalms 27: 14

I love how God tests my heart every now and then. He makes me pass through the furnace to purify my soul and mold my character. He puts me into trials so that He could prove his realness in my life. Now, he gives me the reason to keep on holding on him.

I could picture myself being thrown into a fire of problems; but still God is holding me. It’s not the time for me to let go of his hands, instead, I must let my hold to him becomes tighter and tighter. My own strength wont help me escape from it, but only him who could take me away from it. I’ve come to discover more of him because of these trials. I knew that sometimes, he may be slow but he is never late! Most importantly, he never fails to do his promises to me! He just tests my heart so that he could measure my patience and trust to him. What an amazing revelation!

So His promises about my visa and my other plans will never fail. He will fulfill them because simply, He promised them! Again, there’s nothing to worry. My only part is to prepare my heart for His Word and wait for His perfect timing, for the degree of my faith to Him is the degree of the blessings I will receive from Him.

Lord Jesus, thank you for the trials and the strength you give me to overcome them. I will wait for you and I love you.

Desperate to Fast for Miracles!

I’ve come to realize the reasons why my visa got delayed. I thank God for helping me with my combat  against unbelief by always reminding me of His love and promises to me. Now, I am more matured with my faith and learning to really rely to Him. I love Him so much for putting me into tests!

Tomorrow, I’m planning to start my two-day fasting (liquids only). I’m really desperate for miracles! First, it’s for my family and other friends’ salvation (you read it right, until now, I haven’t won the majority of the members of my family like my sisters, aunt and grandma). Second, it’s for the hastening of the arrival of my visa. Last, it’s for me to conquer any doubts, negative thoughts and confusions in my life. There are things that I think I did not submit to Him these past few weeks, like my emotions. He has been showing in my dreams last week that I have problems with myself which I must troubleshoot (because they lead me to sin!) Moreover, it’s to discipline myself. I would like God to help me kill the desires of my flesh and establish the new me. Often times, there are things that I really can not control (like excessive eating! hehehe). And I don’t think I could just do this with my own; I have to seek for the help of my Father. I want Him to discipline me with this matter.

Well, I’ve been hearing about fasting since before but I never knew it’s real importance (click this for details about fasting and prayer). Because of these trials I am experiencing, Gods puts desires for me to fast little by little. Before, I already tried a one-meal fasting, and now, I’m led for a two-day no food but only liquids fasting. Along with this is abstinence to computers and cellphones. I’m planning to isolate myself from any destructions, but only to put my focus on Him and do works that would please Him. I want to show Him that I am really desperate for Him! I want to prove Him that I am so serious with my faith to Him! Oh God, I am really desperate to fast for miracles! Now, I’m becoming more reliable to Him because no one can help me but only Him. Lord, I know you will let me escape with these troubles if and only if I will become serious with my prayer and Christian life. Praise you, oh Jesus, who shapens my character with trials and gives me the reasons to live in righteousness and holiness.

“Fear not, My Beloved Princess!”

The Lord Spoke to Abram in a vision, “Fear not, Abram, I am your shield; your reward shall be very great!” Genesis 15:1

This week I got really depressed because of my U.S visa. Until now, it puzzles me about it. Mom decides to call the embassy today. I’ve been praying for it. I cried when she and my brother told me this: “Maymay, pray for your visa. We’ve been waiting for you here. Everything is waiting for you here!” I’m not losing hope. My friends and disciples are praying for me, and I thank God for that.

It makes me stumble to God every time I think of my situation right now. I consider this as a big problem. My heart is overwhelmed with sorrow. Sometimes, I get afraid of the fact that my departure will get delayed. No, I don’t like to accept this fact. I don’t like to entertain this negative idea. The reason is that, God promised me that I will soon leave. That’s what I am holding on right now. There’s no big problem to a great God!

U.S.A is waiting for me!

One time, in my prayer, he spoke to me these words, “Fear not, my beloved princess, I will protect you and reward you greatly.” And this my eyes made full of tears when I heard him saying this. I felt the embrace of my Father as He enumerated all the plans I have shared to Him before. I must not be afraid neither be worried because He is my strong shield and He will reward me greatly. My godly grief led me to kissing my knees and face on the floor. I kept on pulling the fringe of Jesus’ garments for a miracle to happen. Trust is all I need this time. I trust you, Lord.

God’s Promises To Me

Then the Lord took Abram outside and said, “Look at the sky and see if you can count the stars. That’s how many descendants you will have.” Abram believed the Lord, and the Lord was pleased with him.” - Genesis 15:5

I became sad this morning. Mom and and I were talking in the internet and she told me that she thinks there’s a problem with my visa. Three weeks ago, I had an interview with the U.S embassy and until now, my visa is not yet arriving. I really don’t know its status. And I did not expect that she was the first one to discourage me. She said, “Let’s just accept that you’re not coming here anymore.”  I cried so hard when she said this. Satan kept on telling me that “Maybe she’s right. Your God did not fulfill his promises to you.” I don’t want to entertain this negative thought.

God promised me that I will leave and be with my mom in the United States. I have already shared all of my plans to Him. When I arrive there, the first thing I will do is to find a Christian church. Then I will enroll in a university for this semester and continue my study. I will learn driving with my brother. We will shop together. I will continue my dental braces. I will have my vaccination next month. I will learn how to play musical instruments. I will take a gym class and plan for a diet. I will find a work for myself. I will bless my family, friends and church in the Philippines financially. I will send bibles, inspirational books and devotional notebooks to them. I will come back after a year for a vacation. I know I will be successful with this. I also dream of becoming a millionaire before this year ends… at the age of 19! And I don’t want to let that single negative thought (stated above) to destroy everything I’ve been dreaming of.

Last night, I saw stars in heaven and God told me, “Look at the sky and see if you can count the stars. That’s how many blessings I will bestow you. That’s how many people you will inspire with the talent I gave you. I will make you an eloquent speaker and writer. You will have many disciples. That’s how many places you will visit in the world. You will reach out with different people and you will bring them the good news. I will show you great things.”

I plan to travel around the world. I want to reach out with a lot of races. I want that God will bless me financially so that I could bless His people too. I want to serve the Lord with my whole life. As of now, I could see a good success that’s coming in my life; it’s because God has promised it to me. I’m a little bit discouraged right now, because I received several discouragements from my family. But no, God does not break His promises. He told me “You are leaving for U.S.A this September! I will bless you there and you will bless my people in the Philippines!”

It brought me to my knees when I reminded Him of my plans. This might be a big problem for me, but my God is greater that is living in me! I have already proven His faithfulness to me a lot of times, so there’s no reason for me not to trust Him. Lord, I trust You. I apply your blood in my visa. I believe in miracles… I trust in you, my Lord. I trust in you. I trust in you. i trust in you.